Change

Want the change. Be inspired by the flame where everything shines as it disappears. The artist when sketching loves nothing so much as the curve of the body as it turns away.

What locks itself in sameness has congealed. Is it safer to be gray and numb? What turns hard becomes rigid and is easily shattered.

Pour yourself like a fountain. Flow into the knowledge that what you are seeking finishes often at the start and with ending begins.

Every happiness is the child of separation it did not think it could survive. And Daphne becoming a laurel dares you to become the wind. ~Rainer Maria Rilke

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“When you are in doubt, be still, and wait; when doubt no longer exists for you, then go forward with courage. So long as mists envelop you, be still; be still until the sunlight pours through and dispels the mists — as it surely will. Then act with courage.” ― Ponca Chief White Eagle

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“When you are in a state of deep internal stillness, you see the truth of change, the truth of impermanence that’s constantly in flow moment by moment. So that becomes a kind of insight that liberates you from the futility of the kind of grief that disallows our own humanity to emerge.”

~Roshi Joan Halifax from “Compassion’s Edge States”

Want the Change, 30 x 40 in, oil on canvas ©Sharon Kingston

These past few weeks have been most enlightening to me.  Extremely unsatisfied in my job,  I mustered the energy and professionalism to execute a major event which I had been working on for an entire year.  I delivered an “innovative and extremely successful event which was executed flawlessly” despite the inner turmoil.  And then I resigned from my job.  Trying to be still and contemplative among the voices of doubt and anger that have existed in my head was a difficult endeavor.  However, conversations with strong and capable associates as well as these wonderful words gave me the courage to not only speak out and stand up for myself, but to move forward to realize a different vision of my career, one more consistent with who I truly am.